2018 is winding down, and the pressure is on to get things done before the end of the year. I procrastinate too much. I consider others far beyond my own needs, or discomfort. I need to stop doing that, but it is in my nature to take care of other people. So now I am going to have to work harder to reach certain goals, and keep my life on a positive track of rebuilding.

Maybe that's a Buffalo thing? Always rebuilding but never quite getting there. The city, the economy, the sports teams, our lives. Maybe it's time to seek new destinations, a new home, or simply close it all down, and start over completely. Maybe I should go the way of building a van, traveling the country, photographing what I find, and see if I can finally make a sustainable living just being a nomad; a drifter with a penchant for visual arts, and capturing life as it happens.

Honestly, what more do I really need in life? Maybe that should be the ultimate plan. Get as far off the grid as I can. Stay mobile, and elusive.

Maybe soon. I say maybe a lot. I know what I want out of life, I'm just not sure I'll ever have it, so there's a lot of maybes. If I can get to where I want to go, then where do I go? What should my goals be?

Perhaps 2019 will change my mind on this.

We'll see.